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Others see you as lively, charming, amusing, practical, sensible, cautious, and careful ; someone who’s constantly in the centre of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who’ll always cheer them up and help them out;They also see you as gifted, or talented, but modest; Easily makes friends but someone who’s extremely loyal to special friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is ever broken. - that’s a big part of the real me.

Sometimes the only reason you stay is(are) the person(s) you are staying with…nothing else!!!…otherwise, it’s a bumming-hell-of-a-lifeline!!!

A piece never deserts to the enemy, nor does it ever rebel; it is faithful unto death;A person with the facility to win is ready to conquer any complex problem - Learn the rule of the game and rule the world.(the rule of life and the rule of chess)

whew! what a week!!!it has been days and i’m still sick!!! I hate this feeling and i hate  myself…have nobody to blame except me…i’m sick because i  let myself become sick…never care enough for myself and this is how i pay!!!Prisst!!! Excuse me my nose!!!

  Today is such a very nasty day!!! All i can say is "FUCKING SHITTY DAY!!!!

Whew! we had a heated argument, me and my Budz, yesterday. She was very mad at me and I was hurt with her responses..but, Bez as we are, were able to patch it up before the day ends…should i say another apology?… but/and…I’m glad we did. Nwie,  life has been an adventure and acquiantance…I almost broke a website yesterday, was able to fix email configuration in MAC(…my most hated MAC) w/ Netscape on the 1st try the other day and…really AND…was able to fix frontpage publishing error of the cx by recalculating the web…Gosh! I can never be prouder of myself other than today!!!!Yahoo!! Such a big improvement!!! Do i see somebody raising their eyebrows…what the heck! I don’t care…I’ll be the best techy person…soon!!! he he he…BUT WAIT! should i be very happy? my Budz is sad and troubled…then i shouldn’t be!

I’m feeling so sleepy and stressed out…Had just 3 hrs of sleep yesterday and still up and awake till now….Whew!!! Have to stay here for some more time coz of some friends who intend to apply…Referrral din yun, dava?!!! Money-faced(mukhang pera..he he)…Nwei, i’ll be going home in just a few minutes and still needs to report for work tonight at 10pm. Will i make it? I should!!! To think that i’ll be battered with calls again tonight and my Budz will not be here to even share the load…My goodness!!!

i got new a friend…a buddy actually, who turns to be my Bez Budz now. We weren’t that close the 1st time we get to know each other but we closer than close as we get to know each other more and more..At times, when i feel confused and down, (s)he would say "Just stick with me and we’ll cruise togetha". I guess, I found a real new bestfriend in this little-bitchy, childish but super sweet and makulit person-ality.. i learned a lot about myself when (s)he became my Bez Budz and enjoyed our hangouts(so much)…all those times we spent together in and out of work…BUT…lately, some things are not how it used to be…did she finally get tired of being a Budz to her Bogz?..or did (s)he find something more exciting to do or to go w/ w/o me…OR…did (s)he finally find another Bez…for sure, it’s not another Bogz…but!!!???…well, just wondering!!!

Has just finished another salsa lesson…learned new steps and felt dizzy coz of all those turns..well, learning the hard way,huh?! I’m now at the ofc rendering OT.It’s a need so to speak and it’s another night w/o my Bez Budz. Already getting used to it, Budz!!! I really wish (s)he’s here but I don’t mind at all if only (s)he is at home, lying contentedly in her bed taking a good escape from all these iritating calls..The thing is, (s)he is not.. coz of her pestering toothache..Need to see ur dentist, girl(yuck!)..Nweis, hope she gets better..by tomorrow i sure believe she will be he he.(reading between the lines)..I guess my mother is already missing me when she simply throw me that meaningful smile after i told her that i’m going to render OT tonight…"If suddenly I don’t feel like going, then i’ll be home earlier". Unfortunately, i felt rendering OT tonight is fine…So today, is the last day for the outing…how i wish i’d be able to go…i really do..but the luck is not w/ me..My Budz is not well to go w/ me as well anyway.. hmmm!!!! what a day( should i say night?)

How do u describe something u urself don’t understand? How do i describe this feeling of emptiness that keeps popping out? There are always questions but answers are always out in the open…Search and you’ll find..Really?!! I don’t think so? Life is tiring and sometimes boring..Will there be an end? Probably. When? I don’t know…maybe SOON!!!